So what have i done since i've come back from Bendigo? Sweet FA really. I've hardly done any homework, I've been waiting for all my mid semester results to come back to sort of motivate me into doing work. The problem is that I didn't get top scores and i didn't do to badly either, which sorta sucks cause if I got great marks i'd be all excited about continuing to get great marks and would get right into it. If I had bad marks i'd be freaking out and studying my arse off to get the grades up enough to pass. At the moment I am sitting at above the class average marks with all my subjects. This gives me no motivation what so ever so actually do any work. Go figure!

Perhaps I am just making up crap, perhaps regardless of whatever mark i have at the moment i'd still be slacking off :) .

My life feels like its been going in slo mo all year yet it has passed me so quickly compared to any other year, not sure why that is and I probably say that every year but oh well :) . I'm content with where i am with things I think, I'm still in a very loving relationship, I'm not as broke as I use to be and I am doing a degree I feel is worthwhile and is teaching me something new with every class I take. However things just still don't sit right with me in my mind. I dunno what it is, I'm starting to think its the house I live in, I've been in this place for around 3 years now I think, maybe 2.5 or whatever. Even before my sister moved out I've always felt very demotivated sitting around in my house. It doesn't inspire me, I don't think it ever did. Which is a shame cause its a lovely house really (If it was fixed up) and the position it is in Melbourne is great and I do enjoy living with the folks that I currently live with. Perhaps its the feng shui (sp?) of my room? That has been mentioned to me before. Fuck I dunno, all I know is that I really don't think I am as happy as I could be!!! wtf is wrong with me?

Perhaps this just happens to everyone but no one ever talks about it or takes much notice and dismisses it. :)

Errrr this is turning into 2:30am drivel which could start boarding on depressing so I'll just stop now, I cbf reading back over this so excuse my badly spelt and poorly constructed sentences.

I found out some results today for some mid-semester tests I sat a week or so ago. In my course every subject has at least 1 mid semester test and well and a final exam with both of them making up anywhere between 60%-100% of your mark, so they are always fairly important to do well in. One test I got a decent mark in and I was satisfied, the other I thought I got a pretty poor mark in until i realised I was above the average mark and that quite a few people must have got under 50%. I was going to do no study today until I got these marks, I think I'll get something done so I don't feel too bad about my school work :) .

Mmmmm nice weather makes me wanna blog.

I'm up in Bendigo visiting my parents. It was rather a spur of the moment decision to travel up here which generally ends up making the travelling/visiting a good one.
Parents dropped by unexpectantly to visit me on Sunday on their way back from Sydney, I decided to grab my things and come up here for a couple of days and within about 15 minutes we were outta there. I haven't sat with both my parents on an over an hour long car trip since I was about 14. It was really good to have them both there and all of us not going crazy at each other like we did 10 years ago. We chatted about all sorts of things and it was really good to have a "grown up" conversation with my parents, which I guess with me it always has been like that from an early age but this time it was the three of us, so it was all good.

I think you get the general theme...

Yesterday was a really sunny day in Bendigo and it felt fantastic, its true how everything doesn't seem bad at all when you get a real warm break in the weather after such a long period of cold. I went down to Dads work and helped in fixing up some things on his computers/network and also sorted out some automation stuff in the financial program that they use down there. The program is a bugger to get anything done in and is really not user friendly at all, they were grateful that I could fix anything up in it as they have real problems with it and I can see why. They even told me the horror stories of the supposed "help" they get from the guys that are suppose to be supporting the program. It sounds like to me the people that do the support aren't trained well enough or they have some sorta employee turn over problem.
Also while I was there my Dad blinded my Mum and I by accident with this new laser he was trying out (Ok it wasn't that bad but you are suppose to wear protective goggles while using it), it fucking hurt my eyes for about 5 minutes but then I forgot about it. Good times.
Got to hang out with the gals (Sophie and "Mumma Cat", my two cats), I miss these cats a lot more than I miss my sisters cat that I use to live with for about 3 years (although I love him too). I'm going to be one sad person when these cats pass away, they are about 80 and 90 cat years old or something so I guess they'll die in a couple of years. Perhaps they are iron cats of their species and will live to be 5000 cat years old? I can only hope :) .
Trying to get some study done while Im here but all I end up doing is patting the cats, cleaning for my mum and also repairing any technical glitch they have with any electrical/computational appliance they have. Actually that sums up most of my visits here on my own pretty well :) .
Tomorrow I make my way home leaving here at about 6:30am or something, my dad is giving me a lift home as he needs to come to Melbourne for a work thing. When I get home I gotta get my arse to mars (Swinburne) and catch up with a work group of mine for some debate research. I think I'm going to get conned into being the main researcher and speaker for the group, I hate prepared speaking, I much prefer an impromptu type of an approach to public speaking, least then if I make mistakes I can be all like "Hey, I'm coming up with this shit off the top of my head, go easy on me".