I just got back from my exam, I think I failed. This is not one of serps usual spoutings of failure, this time he means it. The exam went really bad. The stuff I studied for in depth was not even really on the exam, one topic that i knew really well and was an essay question worth 20 out of the 50 marks the last few exam papers got relegated to a 10 out of 50 question, but with the same detail required. Fuck you exam writer. The other parts of the test went horribly, I wrote an essay on a topic I hardly knew anything about, writing very broadly and hardly even getting anything useful written down. The other short answer question worth 10 marks I was guessing at, and even though I think I got some of the diagram stuff right I cam home and read up on my reasoning and realise that the reasons I gave for the diagrams were totally wrong and completely something out of another topic. This may have been a result of a panic attack I had for about 20 minutes of the writing period of the exam, where I couldn't think straight, could hardly breathe, couldn't even remember my own name and felt like passing out/bashing the desk/and letting out screams of obscene sentences directed at everyone around me and myself. I don't think i've ever had a panic attack quite like that ever, generally I calm myself down after 5 minutes but this time I couldn't shake it. The multiple choice part of the exam could have gone well but thats only worth 10 out of 50 marks, I'm pretty sure I would have got at least 5 right for that.

If I be optimistic I think I'll score about 20/50 for the exam, that is not a pass, THIS FUCKING SUCKS GOD I FEEL LIKE SUCH AN IDIOT!!!!#$#$

Even though i didn't have much time to study I thought I had everything fairly under control, I thought I knew enough, obvisously I didn't.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK etc.