So now I've had two full days at my new job. First day was not so great, due to my lack of sleep the night before, the lack of breakfast and the being a few minutes later than the time I wanted to be there. To start of with I had a few quick meetings with my grad manager and my actual manager, this was fine although I wasn't really taking much in from being so whacked out. Then pretty much they dropped me right into my work without very much tutoring, they only had about 1/3 of the systems set up for me in the first hour, then the guy that was helping me sorta just left to get on with his own work, they then just started piling information on my project my way and my manager expected me to start contact people and setting up meetings etc as soon as possible, this would be fine if I could actually access my email correctly, had external Internet access for research and had a phone number for my desk phone and had an access pass that I could leave the building with. So basically on my first day for most of it I was frantically trying to figure out how to use Lotus Notes correctly, wrangling to get my IP Phone working, trying to find all these forms (and the right people to sign them who I didn't know) to get all my computer access stuff approved. Basically it was a real struggle to get anything simple done and I spent most of my day feeling overwhelmed and stupid. Today was a better, almost have everything sorted out administrative wise, people are being more forward and helpful, my manager has maybe realised that I am actually a graduate at this place and I don't really know how to do all those simple day to day things and basically I am getting my head around my project.

The project itself is basically my own, I've basically been asked to do a strategic paper on an 'information delivery channel' for lack of a better term without giving too much away to the internets gremlins, however I also will become the guy that will have to deal with all the random questions that get put forward about the IDC, so basically I have to know everything about this as no one else in the organisation knows much at all so I've been told (and have experienced thus far).

So yeah, still not feeling psyched about going to work tomorrow although I am not dreading it like I was this morning so that's good. We have a proper "graduate induction" days sometime next week which will be a nice little break, here is hoping every day from today gets a tiny bit better until I get to the point where I will get up and won't think twice about if I want to go to work or not.