So I've been thinking about blogging for a while, tomorrow I will be offically off the graduate program. I've got my job lined up, I'll be staying in the team I am working on a project which should be an interesting experience. Just need to sign my contract which should be done this week, they've been screwing around the last few weeks with doing that, it was more of the fact that no one really knew how to move a grad to their team, well the boss of the area does but she was away on leave and very busy when she got back.

Anyway, I feel kinda weird to be finally off the grad program, I'm not sure what I thought I was going to get out of it when I started, I guess I did get the variety in work that I wanted from doing it but I still feel like I want more, what that variety is I am still not sure. I don't feel particuarly passionate about doing something else, I don't feel particuarly passionate about where I am staying either, but I think it will be a great experience to stay and see through what I am working on.

I think I thought the grad program was going to help me sort out what I really wanted with my life, I think it has reenforced a few things in my mind about what I don't want to do for the rest of my life, and open my eyes to some things I might consider trying in the corporate world. I dunno, some days I feel like I'd be so much happier going outside to plant a field of trees each day, conquer erosion one salty creek at a time or some shit. I think this whole never realising what your calling (or perhaps actioning it??) is the reason people jump into marriage and have kids, when they are super young, or like become self destructive, who can be bothered actually figuring it out? Aren't you suppose to know these things from the beginning?

I know, I know, life is all about figuring this shit out...

So anyway, back to the grad program stuff, I'd recommend anyone to try doing one, and I don't mean doing a "grad job" I mean doing an actual program that is tailored for introducing people into big business and all that shit, really it is quite useful, they allow for you to make the odd mistake, and they give you decent training and it is always nice to have people around that have either a) done the same thing as you but a year(s) earlier, or are experiencing the same thing now.

In other news, I need to figure out what I am going to do with this year, last year was all about getting here and surviving, now I feel a little more settled but with no clear direction with what I want to do. Seems to be the theme of this blog really! I think I might buy more shit this year, why the fuck not eh? I never really did go crazy like I thought I was going to last year, I guess because Sydney is far more expensive to live in than most people think, seriously, Melbourne seems so much cheaper now and I thought it was expensive there.