So my life is on hold until Wednesday. For that is the day my results come out and i see if I've failed any subjects, which most likely i feel, will be one subject and if that happens I will folk over a whole lot of cash (And I mean a lot) just to do the subject again over summer semester. Which just happens to start the same day the results come out, so I have to get up at 8am and hope that the results are released on time, If I have failed this subject I have to rush down to school and enrol in my subject before 9:30 as that is when my first class will start. The summer semester this year isn't actually a "semester" its more of a 8 day intensive course from 9am to 3:30pm everyday and then a 4 or 5 day break before you sit a 3 and a half hour exam on the 23rd of December. On one hand I like the fact that it is being run over quickly so I can just go nuts for 2 weeks and get it over with, on the other I feel this could be bad as one of the main reasons I stuff my exam (apart from the panic attack) was because I had to rush my preparation, which having 2 weeks total to go from start to finish in a subject is probably going to cause me to rush things again :/ . Here is hoping everything will come flooding back to me and I can just concentrate on the problem areas that I had with the last exam.

So yeah if I wake up on Wednesday and realised I have failed more than one subject I will not do summer semester and repeat those two subjects next year, thus adding another semester to my degree, balls. This is more unlikely but still a very real possibility that I am trying not to think about too much.

The other possibility is that by some miracle I pass all my subjects, thus which will probably mean me promptly getting back into bed and going to sleep for a few hours and then waking up and buying christmas presents with all this money I thought I was gonna have to spend on summer semester. Gosh that seems like such a dream at the moment.

Grrrrr arrggghhh feeling so paralysed! I can't bring myself to do much past breathing and eating at the moment because of all this, I just wish it was Wendesday morning already!