Well now I am back from Bendigo and apart from the whole Earthquake in the Indian Ocean thing feel a lot more relaxed about things (I can control anyways). It was a really good Christmas this time around, probably the nicest and most complete christmas I have ever had. I felt pretty spoilt the whole time I was up there, my parents put on a pretty good spread for Astro, my sister a friend of theirs and myself. Much food was to be had and I chowed it down with great fury. I got some really great presents too, stuff for my bed, towels, stuff for my ipod that astro gave me for my birthday, a book.

Errr all of a sudden as I write this I have the urge to pull down this site and stop writing stuff, this seems to happen to me a lot lately and there really isn't any reason for it. I just feel lazy and realise that my writings on the internet are really just crap and have no relevance to anything whatsoever. Not like this is a new thought to me, but its just annoying me again right now.

Hmm more write another day when i feel like it.

God yesh, This Tidal wave stuff happening in Indonesia/India/Thailand is terrible. Just goes to show that when you let your guard down and think everything is ok in the world, the world turns around and shows us whose boss.

Merry Christmas Cocksages!!!!

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Ahhh so now I've passed my semester of uni. After all that worrying in the end I have had nothing to worry about, story of my academic life past the age of 21 :P The subject I thought I was going to fail I only just ended up passing (I got a 52) thats the lowest mark I've ever got outside of High School, so that is pretty bad, the other subjects I did surprising well in and overall my marks were slightly better than semester one of this year (only just).

So now what? For the last couple of weeks I haven't been doing much purely because I was waiting for my marks from uni before I decided to do anything or plan anything. I seriously thought I'd be up to my eyeballs in studying and debt having to repeat a subject but now I am doing nothing! Ahhh sweet nothing! with only 1% stress!

So I'll do my christmas shopping soon, try and get that out of the way instead of waiting for like the 20th of December to start like I usually do, now I actually have some money to buy presents with which is good.

Hmmm I just dunno what to write about, my mind is all emply and directionless a bit at the moment, I think I am just shutting down a little bit in my brain as a year full of stress has burnt it out a bit.

More... Write... Later...

I passed!!!! Woop Woop Woop!!!

*on ground moving myself in circles with my legs wooping*

So my life is on hold until Wednesday. For that is the day my results come out and i see if I've failed any subjects, which most likely i feel, will be one subject and if that happens I will folk over a whole lot of cash (And I mean a lot) just to do the subject again over summer semester. Which just happens to start the same day the results come out, so I have to get up at 8am and hope that the results are released on time, If I have failed this subject I have to rush down to school and enrol in my subject before 9:30 as that is when my first class will start. The summer semester this year isn't actually a "semester" its more of a 8 day intensive course from 9am to 3:30pm everyday and then a 4 or 5 day break before you sit a 3 and a half hour exam on the 23rd of December. On one hand I like the fact that it is being run over quickly so I can just go nuts for 2 weeks and get it over with, on the other I feel this could be bad as one of the main reasons I stuff my exam (apart from the panic attack) was because I had to rush my preparation, which having 2 weeks total to go from start to finish in a subject is probably going to cause me to rush things again :/ . Here is hoping everything will come flooding back to me and I can just concentrate on the problem areas that I had with the last exam.

So yeah if I wake up on Wednesday and realised I have failed more than one subject I will not do summer semester and repeat those two subjects next year, thus adding another semester to my degree, balls. This is more unlikely but still a very real possibility that I am trying not to think about too much.

The other possibility is that by some miracle I pass all my subjects, thus which will probably mean me promptly getting back into bed and going to sleep for a few hours and then waking up and buying christmas presents with all this money I thought I was gonna have to spend on summer semester. Gosh that seems like such a dream at the moment.

Grrrrr arrggghhh feeling so paralysed! I can't bring myself to do much past breathing and eating at the moment because of all this, I just wish it was Wendesday morning already!