Tonight on msn my sisters old boyfriend started talking to me, we ran into each other on NYE and had a fairly decent chat then. We as people had a lot in common, from the strange shit we use to do as teenagers, to mutual friends to shit like computers but probably most importantly out of everything in common we share a passion for a particular time and space in music history. Now it must be understood that in the past about 5 years ago I wanted to throttle this guy on a daily basis due to the way he was living his life and treating my sister in their relationship, hell, one time I threw my dinner to the ground and leap across the lounge room, knife in one hand almost stabbing this guy cause he pissed me off once to often! It was a seriously serious moment in my mind and was the first time I ever felt I understood that term that he probably used in a lot of domestic violence murders "Heat of the moment".
But even through all of this, we could always fall back to our extremely rare common taste for certain music, and tonight was one of those nights where we both pulled out all the stops and thrusted music at each other over the medium of the internet, trying to find certain music that we have heard of and long forgot the names of, reminisicing on music of old and what "that" track meant to us, where we heard it first, where we bought "this" record and where we could get "that" record now. It ended in both of us agreeing that we have a lot of music that each other has that the other needs to listen to, and this probably means catching up in person soon to do so.
I have said this a bit to astro, and I'll say it again, it's a real shame that this guy is my sisters ex-boyfriend and things ended for us on such bad terms. Cause if we had met under different circumstances we would probably have been pretty good friends now, we both recognise this, and I think that he would really like to be good friends with me, but I have to keep him at an arms length as to not do so would be much more trouble than its worth which is a shame really.
I don't know how many of us have experienced that feeling of friendship with another person (outside of one being of a sexual nature), that you wish you could continue or even make better but due to circumstances that can now never be changed you just can't?? Its a weird position to be in, let me tell you.
It so strange, even though I enjoy talking to this guy the whole time I was doing it I had this feeling in my stomach that reminded me of all the anger I use to have towards him all those years ago, and by the time I finished talking to him (which was 30 minutes ago) I was exhausted! How does that work?
Anyway, its like 5am and I should sleep, my sleeping habits have just gone to shit.
Sorry if this post is poorly written, dead tired and cbf reading back over it.
But even through all of this, we could always fall back to our extremely rare common taste for certain music, and tonight was one of those nights where we both pulled out all the stops and thrusted music at each other over the medium of the internet, trying to find certain music that we have heard of and long forgot the names of, reminisicing on music of old and what "that" track meant to us, where we heard it first, where we bought "this" record and where we could get "that" record now. It ended in both of us agreeing that we have a lot of music that each other has that the other needs to listen to, and this probably means catching up in person soon to do so.
I have said this a bit to astro, and I'll say it again, it's a real shame that this guy is my sisters ex-boyfriend and things ended for us on such bad terms. Cause if we had met under different circumstances we would probably have been pretty good friends now, we both recognise this, and I think that he would really like to be good friends with me, but I have to keep him at an arms length as to not do so would be much more trouble than its worth which is a shame really.
I don't know how many of us have experienced that feeling of friendship with another person (outside of one being of a sexual nature), that you wish you could continue or even make better but due to circumstances that can now never be changed you just can't?? Its a weird position to be in, let me tell you.
It so strange, even though I enjoy talking to this guy the whole time I was doing it I had this feeling in my stomach that reminded me of all the anger I use to have towards him all those years ago, and by the time I finished talking to him (which was 30 minutes ago) I was exhausted! How does that work?
Anyway, its like 5am and I should sleep, my sleeping habits have just gone to shit.
Sorry if this post is poorly written, dead tired and cbf reading back over it.
posted by serp at 5:02 AM
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